nightmare

dream started out me at preteen wanting to visit Alaska. when we got there first it was uncle b i didnt like it because it was so icy that if i was not careful i would slide off and fall down down down. so i made sure to hold on to something at all times. then i was mom and my oldest wanted to stay to live for awhile with friends of. then i was school age again and he was telling me that i could never live at home anymore so i should get used to being away and on my own. then adult and my oldest wanted to live with him for a few days, so both went for the visit. then he said they wanted to stay forever and never would he let them come back to me.
 I was tring to fight but them i was in highschool living with asian couple with young girl whom i helped and protected at home and school. back to being adult fighting for kids. i had to convince ex-inlaws, child services and some man that said he was holy man and that i was taken over by evil and would be a bad influence-i knew he was a kook so i played along and was beating him at his own game-saying he was so tortured that Jesus was ready with open arms and that he needed to go and let go of this world and go home because he has suffered enough. he was confused and i left him with his delima but at least he was no longer talking against me. ex-in-laws were hard to deal with but i tried to convince them but then they all used the fact that that i was single and he had wife and family to give the kids a better life where they could be kids without being burdened with knowing i struggle to support them. i then tried to explain to c-s that i was a good mom and that it was his fault for not paying c-s that made it a struggle. they awarded him cusoty, i asked about temp until determined if it would work with them living there because given time he would get bored with them and not want them anymore. then i was with Asian couple and getting ready for dance. then i was in Alaska and car was broke down and him and friends were trying to get it working, then i went behind the fridge and set off sparks which then started the car so i was hopping in fast to get away but i kept getting delayed and i was rushing and rushing to get back to kids but then they were grown and i could not understand why where they were living was even an issue. i finally work myself up worried about everything...me being protected with no one to protect me, fight over who would be best to raise kids and fighting everyone, then kids being old enough to decide what they wanted.