never been kissed

just watching the end of movie "never been kissed" and when she talked about the boy at school that was worth getting up each day to go to school just to see him. that there was something about him.......there was one of those at my school, well when i first met him he did not go to my school but within a couple of years he did. When i was 12ish my best friend told me about this guy she meet
 at church. (i was not raised in one religion and did not attend one) A boy at church well how cute could he be if he is at church. She kept going on and on about him. I had meet one of his sister's and she seemed nice, actually she was so funny because she always said exactly what was on her mind. I always wished i could be that bold, but for me i had to blend in and not bring attention to myself. anyway Her grandmother was dating the man that had a small grocery store about 3 blocks from my house. he never married her grandmother because his mother did not like the grandmother so they dated (waiting for mother to approve or pass) she would help him run the store and her granddaughter would come to work as a companion to the mother in the house across the street from the store. anyway back to the boy, i finally agreed to go to church with my friend since I would not be walking into a room full of strangers-i would know the tow of them. when we got there we sat in the back of the room, she wanted to go closer to the front to see him better but there was no way i was going in that far, i had to stay close to the door in case i had to run. (some religions can be kinda scary). So here we are attending a church that i knew nothing about but had heard stories about how strange it was, just so i could get a look at this boy. well let me correct that, he was no boy since he was 3 years older than me, he was almost a man. Now i had meet boys before that were cute and they were friendly and we would be boyfriend/girlfriend (as 5+ and up people can be). So I was not new to boys and cuteness and flirting and crushing and well anyway I was over 12-thats almost 16 (my parents said i had to wait til 16 to date). first I saw the girl that I knew and her older sister of whom I had talked to a few times but did not know her as well. now to keep everything straight-siblings birth order--him 14/15, sister 13, me 12 (friend) sister 11 and younger sister 9ish. There their was their mom (I dont think their dad was their that night since it was a Wed night and he worked in city but that is a whole other story) They all had a strong family resemblance that you knew they were related. It was hard to get a good look at him because they were sitting close to the front, plus i had to make it look like I didnt look or that i was looking at the sister friend. But from what i could see of him I was in LOVE. I mean he was so cute and so good looking and so cute..and i had not even seen him completely yet. So all thru church we (me & my friend, him and his sisters) kinda had a quite secret conversation. Then when church was done we had to act like it was taking a long time getting ready to leave, so that when they left we would bump into each other and that way it did not look like we were looking at him. I talked to the sisters and he acted like he was interested or in my eyes he was-he could have said excuse me when he tried to walk around me-but i think it was his eyes met my and we both knew it was LOVE FOREVER. how ever much longer we were there (his mom had to talk to everyone) it was all dream like to me. After we all left it was hard for me to listen to my friend go on and on about how much he liked her when he hardly talked to her and he treated her kinda like a fly that would not leave him alone. Once he saw that his sisters knew me and was talking to me as a friend he took another look and thought "she is worth knowing" (thats what i think he told me later), its hard to remember each detail after 30+ years. So i attended church everytime i could. some times he would not be there and it was the sadest hours spent, but at least i got to talk to the sisters to find out more about him, without seeming like i was wanting to know about him....i dont think i passed that test. As the girls said one time all the girls like him and it was hard for them because everyone used them to get to him but that would not work because they would not help because they knew he was bad as a boyfriend but good as a brother. So I had to keep my love a secret so i could be close to him. He was the same way when others were around, he just treated me as a friend until we were alone then he was all kisses and promises, as had made up some excuse to be alone for a minute. Each time we were together our love kept getting stronger. but then i would hear things from the sisters about him with other girls and at first i was hurt but after talking to him he would explain that those girls were chasing him and he was just trying to stay away from them. mmmhuhhh I believed it. Then the happy day finally arrived and not only did they move to the town i lived in they moved to a house 2 blocks from me. See it was all meant to be for the two of us to be together forever. This was also good because i did not have to be with my friend (that took me to church to see him) whenever i wanted to see him, i could go on my own to their house and it did not have to be on a church night or if it was I would ride with them to church. Something i had not put together was that when it was me vs my friend there was no contest he picked me. But now that he lived in my town I had all the other girls in school trying to get him. By then he was a Junior and I was a Freshman. He was instantly popular, all of the girls wanted him. that was in public, when we were at his house he was all about me...and when we were in a room alone--kiss kiss with him telling me how special i was and how much i meant to him and that the other girls were nothing but show that i was the one that he wanted but we had to keep it quite so his mom and sisters did not think i was there to see only him because they would stop letting me come visit. my heart was strong, I could handle being his secret love.